Okay I just realized something. I know everybody else has been saying this from day 1, but it just dawned on me. NIKKI AND PAULO ARE RIDICULOUS!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF! HAHAHAHAHAHA!

I was okay with it. I went along with it because I SUPERHEART Rodrigo Santoro and thought it was interesting to have new characters and it seemed like the best way to bring them in. But now I have realized that they were a HUGE mistake and episode 14 was the best thing the writers could have done to fix it. Also, that episode was awesome because of all the deados that came back. :)

Watching the deleted scenes on this DVD has been really fun and enlightening, especially because I’m a freaky person who has every LOST promo photo on her screen saver and I’ve been wondering for a while where all those mystery pictures were from. Above all else, I have been DYING to see Nikki & Paulo’s original intended introduction, which was supposed to have happened in the third episode…

( SPOILERS FOR DELETED SCENES )

I was all pleased with myself when I first bought the set because I selfishly felt lucky to have it before most of the people I know... What is my problem? Now I'm wishing you were all here watching this stuff with me because I'm desperate to talk to you about it and hear what you think. On 11 December I'm going to link back to this post on my LJ so you can all read it without being spoiled and we can discuss! LOST just isn't as fun without the company of other awesome fans. <3

Welllllll... My bags are packed. Mostly. A few last minute things that I still need will have to be stuffed in tomorrow morning, but the rest is packed! I have two bags that are containting clothes, and I carefully spread all of my clothes between them in case one gets lost. It was a very OCD moment for me -- one pair of jeans in bag A, one pair of jeans in bag B, dress up trousers [ :) ] in bag A, skirt in bag B, sweater in bag A, sweater in bag B... and so on. I even tried to make sure the bottoms and tops in each bag matched properly. It seemed ridiculous at the time, but if one bag gets lost forever I'm gonna be grateful I did it. If both bags get lost, I'm royally screwed.

Hmmm what else did I do today? My mom and I battled the crazies at Target... Yuck, remind me never to shop there on Labor Day again! I took care of random things like calling the bank to tell them I'm moving and printing out schedules for my parents to have. Then I went to dinner with my parents and it was very yummy. We came home and took a few pictures for the Christmas card (yes, we're aware that it's still Summer) and then my mom opened presents and we ate some cake. Next we watched a couple episodes of Spaced... including Daisy's birthday episode in honor of today being my mom's. And then the parents went to bed and I stayed up and packed and talked to Gary for about 40 minutes.

NEWS OF THE DAY FROM GARY: He and his roommates now have a snake named Optimus Prime... But they recently had to change its name to Optimus Prima because turned out to be female and gave birth to a bunch of baby snakes. This freaked me out because I had never thought about snakes breeding before, and I imagined the birth to be really weird looking. I'm still planning on doing some research on this. Later in our conversation, Gary walked into the room where the snake lives and found it EATING ITS BABY. Then his roommate walked in and the snake spat the baby out. I was really close to vomiting.

He also has a rat named after some video game character who likes to crawl down his pants.

And that's that... I took some time to finish putting all of the songs from the FotC show on my iPod. Did you know that there were 24 throughout the season, including a song by the Crazy Dogggz? I think that's a pretty nice number. And I'm excited to listen to all of them tomorrow on the plane. I'm also thinking about watching LOST, since I have seasons 2 & 3 on my iPod, but that might freak me out too much... Since I'll be in a plane and all.

Ooo! Speaking of the plane! When I checked in online this afternoon, they let me pick my seat. First I decided that I wanted and aisle seat because I don't want to have to crawl over people when I need to pee/take care of STUPID GIRLY THINGS THAT NO ONE SHOULD HAVE TO DEAL WITH WHEN SHE IS FLYING ON AN AIRPLANE. [TMI, maybe, but it's frustrating so I had to let it out.] Then I realized that I totally need to be in a LOST-numbered row! For some insane reason I remembered that Jack was sitting in 23C when the plane crashed, but I think row 23 is up in the first class section, so that was not an option. So my only other choice was to go with row 42... I picked seat 42C because it's an aisle seat... But then I started getting really paranoid that it was Ana Lucia's seat, because I know she was in row 42. Luckily, when I looked it up later I found that she was in 42F. So I think I have the perfect seat.

Now I'm going to go to bed. I am having a hard time knowing how much sleep I should get tonight... Because I'm going to have to try to sleep on the plane tomorrow, and we leave at 4:50 in the afternoon! So I want to be tired enough to fall asleep, but I don't want to be fumbling through everything tomorrow. Plus I might not be able to sleep on the plane no matter how tired I am, in which case I'm going to need some extra energy from tonight's slumber. So I think I'll aim for 7 or 8 hours. You're really glad you read that, aren't you? I GET RAMBLY WHEN I'M NERVOUS.

Goodnight my dear friends. I'll do one last post tomorrow before I depart! AAAHHH!

Lookie what Karen and I wrote!

Have a date with Kate and it will be great!
If you talk to Locke, you're in for a shock!
If you attack Jack, you will blow up his pack!
If you are like Mike then you'll lose your tyke!
If you run with Sun then you'll have some fun!
Don't follow Paulo or your brain will be hollow!
Be picky with Nikki or you will get sticky!
Stop starin' at Aaron 'cause he just ain't carin'!
Give Hurley a swirly and you'll feel bad, surely!
Ring the bell for Danielle and she'll give you hell!
If you give Claire a chair, then she will stay there!
If you spoon Boone, he'll see you real soon!
If you're scannin' for Shannon, you'll find that she's tannin'!
Give Eko a gecko and inspire Art Deco!
Put Walt in the vault and say it's Ben's fault!
Do you suppose that Rose has 23 toes?
Feed barley to Charlie and he'll feel quite gnarly.
Des will eat Pez if you call Ana a lez!
Tom is the bomb, just ask your mom!
Scott might be hot... Is he dead? I think not.
You might grieve for Steve but from this earth did he leave?
Sink your teeth in to Ethan, you dirty old heathen!
Julie Chen sleeps with Ben, but first they purge Jen!
Juliet is my pet, I should take her to the vet!

BONUS: Hire a lawyer for Saywer and then we'll have sex.

:)

This preview of the LOST computer game is so good, it makes me want to sell my soul to the devil in exchange for a PC so that I can play it. And y'all know how much I hate PCs.

Virtual Sawyer is way sexy.

I can't wait to read all about the Comic Con panel, which is tonight. GET READY FOR JUICY NEWS, ppl.

I think today is going to be the one day I skip class this summer because I really really really don't feel like going. That is my best reason. I just don't feel like driving all the way to campus and sitting through a boring lecture. I don't think I'll miss anything too important; we'll be discussing the same play tomorrow as well. Some people have only come to approximately 3 classes over the past five weeks, however, so me missing one out of 22 lectures is not all that bad, right?

So rumor has it that one of our beloved former LOST cast members will be returning to us as a regular in the fourth season. Actually it's not a rumor at all, it was confirmed today by Stephen McPherson, the president of ABC. Would you like to know who it is? ( Of course you would! )

I can't wait to hear more juicy news after they release it at Comic Con this weekend.

Yeah, I'm pretty sure I won't be going to class.

My hair is so stupid. There's this spot on the back left part of my head that will not -- WILL NOT -- straighten out. No matter how many times I run the flat iron over it, NOTHING. It looks like I'm lazy and don't pay enough attention to the back of my head, but the reality is that I have freakishly curly hair right in that spot. The whole back top layer of my hair is pretty damn wavy, but I can usually get the entire right side straight. What the hell? The rest of my hair is pretty agreeable. The bottom layer doesn't even really need the flat iron. Why does the texture of my hair vary so? If somebody saw me from the right side, they'd be like "Oh, that girl did a nice job fixing her hair." But then they'd see me from any other angle and be like "WTF?!" It's so dumb. Even Veronika, the hairstylist, thinks so. She didn't use the word "dumb," but she certainly expressed her frustration. You're telling me, lady. I have to deal with that shit every day.

While on the topic of asymmetry, DAMN YOU SCOLIOSIS! I am so sick and tired of having and S-shaped spine! Of course, it's not really all that bad -- medically. I never had to have surgery or a brace or anything like that... No pain as a result of it. It's just the way it looks, really. Everybody else says they can't even notice that one of my shoulders is higher and one of my hips is waaay bigger. But I notice it. I notice it all the time. Especially because shirts and jeans often fit me weird just because of it. The seams on shirts hit me in different spots on either side. The left side is always fine, but the right seam is usually a little bit forward. Even if I fix it, it finds its way back. The fly on my jeans is usually not centered either. I HATE ASYMMETRY. It really bugs the OCD side of me to no end. It took me many, many years to be convinced that I should have a side part in my hair. Wow, that was rough. Now I realize that I looked like a crazy hippie four years ago when I had long hair parted in the middle with no bangs, but it was symmetrical and I liked that. Now I have bangs that sweep over to the right side, which is actually okay because there's a birthmark on my left cheek. It's all about balance.

One of my eyebrows currently ends several milimeters further away from my nose than the other one. It's awful. Thanks, eyebrow threading lady (I should really know her name by now...). Seriously, she's awesome, but this time I was not pleased. I can't look in the mirror without noticing the damn asymmetry. All over my frickin' body.

It's officially too late for me to leave for class now. Oh well.

I think I'll go to the store and buy chips for the BBQ instead. Then I might do some reading since I feel guilty about not going to class. I am getting lazy. I'm ready for it to be August so I can not be in school/focus solely on getting ready for Scotland.

I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE.

I AM STARTING MY LOST SEASONS 1-3 MARATHON TODAY.

...Maybe. I might not have time until tomorrow. But whatever. Soon, is the point.

Hello. My post-Potter funk is starting to lift a little. In other words, I no longer burst into tears at the thought of certain events and I dreamt about other things last night.

I just got my hair cut, which is cool.

The Summer of Baking is still going strong in our house, which is also cool. We're having a LOST "Greatest Hits" day on Sunday. This means we're going to select some of the best episodes and make/buy LOST-related food and have the best day ever. I'm definitely making fish biscuits. Last night I couldn't get to sleep so I tried reciting the names of all the LOST episodes in order like I used to be able to do BUT I HAVE LOST MY SKILLS. I need to LOST up my life again. I'm so ashamed.

I need to make a list of some words I'm going to have to replace for life in the UK and then put it to practice. For example, pants will now be called "jeans" or "sweats" or whatever they are because, from what I understand, pants = panties in the UK. Obviously I'll have to do fries --> chips and chips --> crisps. There are other basic ones I know, but I need to do some research about other replacements so I don't sound like an idiot or make any offensive comments on accident. iris_spiorad, do you have any suggestions?

On a related note, I think I should start making lists of things I need to do or buy before leaving in 42 days. I must look into getting some bags/suitcases and I need to stock up on random necessary products that I know I won't be able to buy abroad.

I think I might buy this. I've been wanting a messenger bag anyway. :)

SPEAKING OF LOST MERCHANDISE, OMG, I NEED TO BUY A MINI SAWYER! And Jin, Sun, and Eko, too. And Shannon, since I still don't have her. BUT SAWYER FIRST! SAWWWYYERRRRRRR!!!!

Man Stroke Woman is brilliant. BRILLIANT! Watch it here if you'd like!

BB tonight! BBQ tomorrow night!

I'm getting sad about leaving Santa Barbara and my lovely friends in less than two weeks. :(

Ewwwww Ms. Hawking is on L&O: SVU and I am scared.
Val is addicted to the show and she's sucking the rest of us in too.
It is so weird here without Starr and Mitzi.
I am already behind on reading for my one class.
I'm sure no one is surpised, knowing me and my study skillz.
The International Market is my BFF.
I got some fake Jaffa Cakes & some Kinder yummies.
Tomorrow Catherine is going to pick me up some of the best cheese ever.
I need to get an armband for my iPod.
Gaaah Detective Stabler, I love you.

1. I'm Bear Grylls.

2. If you're gonna be creepy and ship Ben & Locke, how about you call it BLOCKE, which is an alternate spelling of a real word and therefore far more clever than BOCKE, which makes you sound like a sick, old-dude-shipping chicken?

3. The demon children are not gone. What was the point of that graduation? I still hear Rafael.

4. YAAAYYY!!! AWESOME DEPARTMENT DINNER TONIGHT! Assuming Brittny and Val are available, that is. Who knows if we will ever all be in the same place at the same time again. Oh God, I might end up crying today. Everybody don't let me forget to take pictures.

5. 81 days until I leave for Scotland.

The top five characters who I feel are in danger, but sure as hell better survive tonight:

( Not that making this list will save any of them at this point... )

Aaaaahhh I can't wait to watch this episode.

I am in a terrible mood, but it helps knowing that I will be in a FAR better one starting at around 11:30 tonight, when I get home from dumbass mothereffing rehearsal. The rehearsal last night was an absolute piece of shit. I can't begin to explain how uncomfortable it is to sit in the same spot, pelvic bones digging into the ground, hunched over like Quasimodo and leaning to the far right holding on to a blisteringly hot and freakishly heavy stage light with both hands for 5 hours after a very long day of classes. Meanwhile, idiots are telling you stupid things over the headset, yelling at me for doing something wrong when you did it EXACTLY LIKE THEY TOLD ME TO AND THEY, IN FACT, WERE INCORRECT IN THE FIRST PLACE. I got so frustrated last night that I secretly cried three seperate times. Crying is totally acceptable, I've decided, because a) no one can see me so they have no clue, b) the water from the tears helps cool me off, and c) at least it gives me something to do! I also burnt the side of my hand at one point (and that's why I cried the first time) but instead of running it under cold water or taking some kind of break to calm down, I had to keep holding the light with it... So waves of heat were just blasting my burn. It felt awesome. Pain is great, right? I spent about half of the night mouthing obscenities and dramatically displaying both middle fingers to people who could not see me. I was also a huge bitch on the headset but I don't care. I will never see any of these people again after this year. They can suck it. I could barely get out of bed this morning since my neck and back and right shoulder are all screwed up now. I was all stiff. It was actually a little scary.

But whatever. I get to watch two amazing hours of LOST tonight (albeit late) so I guess I'll be able to get through today. HOWEVER, I will be forced to smack a bitch the next time I hear the words "iris in," "focus on your characterrr," or "hotspot." Dear sweet lord, please restrain me from saying the F word to anyone over the headset. Please.

Now for more class.

P.S. Look how cute this picture is!



Weee!!!!

...Everything is LOST!

First of all check out this hella sweet trailer for the finale from the UK. It's awesome, a little bit on crack, and also slightly hilarious for Saturday Night Live fans. ;)



So this morning I spent $5 I shouldn't have been spending on a new LOST game that is now available for iPods. It got me thinking how much money I have wasted wisely spent on all of the awesome LOST merchandise I own... As well as how much others have spent donating to my vast collection as well. So I think I'll compile a list of all the things I have so that I can be ashamed of my addiction, but also bask in the glory of it.

• Season 1 DVD box set
  
• Season 2 DVD box set
  
• iTunes season pass: Season 2
  
• iTunes season pass: Season 3
  
• Season 1 soundtrack
  
• Season 2 soundtrack
  
• iPod game
  
• Numbers t-shirt
  
• Driveshaft t-shirt
  
• "Everything Happens for a Reason" t-shirt
  
• "I'd Rather be LOST with Sawyer" t-shirt
  
• 3 puzzles ("The Hatch," "The Others," and "The Numbers")
  
• 5 action figures (Jack, Locke, Charlie, Kate, Hurley)
  
• 2007 calendar
  
• Official Fan Club kit #2
  
• LOST: The Game (still can't figure it out)
  
• Oceanic bag
  
• DHARMA station pint glasses
  
• Driveshaft shotglass (R.I.P.)
  
• DHARMA orientation mug
  
• Bad Twin by deceased Flight 815 passenger Gary Troup
  
• Finding LOST by Nikki Stafford
  
• 6 issues of the Official LOST Magazine
  
• 11 magazines purchased because of LOST actor(s) on cover
  
• 2 shitty Josh Holloway movies
  
• fish shaped cookie cutter + DHARMA stamp to make fish biscuits
  
• custom made Numbers self-inking stamp :D
  

I think that's it. Am I forgetting anything? I hope not, because that's already an embarrassing amount of crap. Fortunately, lots of those things were gifts from various amazing people.

And while we're on the topic of the best show ever, I have a few things I'm hoping to see in tomorrow's finale, based on what we've seen in the finales from the first and second seasons. I already know some of them will happen based on trailers, so that's pretty awesome. I will bold the things that I am at least 95% sure we'll see.

1. A group including Kate, Jack, and Hurley hiking through the jungle.
2. An appearance by the Hurley bird.
3. The use of dynamite.
4. Hardcore badassery performed by Sayid.
5. Walt?
6. Charlie facing but *escaping* death.
7. Sawyer wearing a button-up long-sleeved shirt that is halfway unbuttoned.

Can you guys think of any other ones?

This weekend is going to suck serious balls. I have tech rehearsal today from 1-10 and tomorrow from 10-10. AWESOME. I am feeling so enthusiastic about sitting behind a follow spot for 21 hours this weekend. WEE! But Starr and I are crossing our fingers that we'll both be up the AP together, which will mean that we can entertain each other. Please please please!

I almost got eaten by a possum last night. AWFUL!

How about a tiny little LOST fix?

( Speculation about promo for 'Through the Looking Glass' )

I have a quiz today but I haven't exactly sudied yet. I have like 6 minutes before I have to leave. Go!

P.S. Neds are crazy! Oooh Glasgow... :)

WHAT I ALREADY ACCEPT AS THE TRUTH: Desmond's flashes are always things he has witnessed the first time around, right? Like we saw in "Flashes Before Your Eyes," something with as big of an impact as the Hatch implosion has sent him back in to relive a chunk of time that he has already been through. That is how he can supposedly "see the future." He's actually being reminded of things that have already happened to him.

( Greatest Hits spoilers from here on out. )

Thoughts???

I keep reading updates about the fall schedules for ABC & NBC and getting all excited, only to remember that I won't even be here in the fall. Of course I will go to great lengths to make sure I can see my favorites like LOST, SNL, The Office, 30 Rock, and such... But I don't know if I will feel like spending time or money downloading/buying episodes of shows I've never actually seen before. So weird. I may just have to invest some energy in making sure I see Sam I Am, however, because it stars the wonderful Christina Applegate and the only good thing that ever came out of 7th Heaven, Barry Watson. The premise is that Christina Applegate's character "comes out of a coma and realizes she was a terrible person." Doesn't sound as sucky as many of thing things on television right now!

Now that I have a working DVD player in my room, I can't stop watching the fourth season of Scrubs. I don't think I've seen like ANY of these episodes before -- I just recently got the DVD set and they never seem to rerun these episodes on TV. Yesterday after I was thinking about how much I loved Molly Shannon, I turned on the next episode and there she was! It was amazing. She is so cute. Anyway, I watch it when I'm going to sleep, when I'm eating, when I can't stand the silence... I'm going to start having weird nightmares about the Janitor and endless racks of scrubs like I did last time I watched so many episodes in a short amount of time... Yikes.

Oh my Jacob (OMJ), there have been ha-uge spoiler leaks for the final two episodes of LOST. I am so so scared that I'll read something. I don't want to know who dies, I don't want to know the big twist (a.k.a. "The [Rattle]Snake in the Mailbox"), I don't even want confirmation that Locke is dead/alive (even though I'm pretty sure I already know the answer at this point). I don't want to know anything. I loved being in the dark last week and it made me remember how it used to be, before I succumbed to the dark world of being spoiled. I like to be updated on interviews and pictures and teasers, though, so I can't cut out my LOST website visiting altogether. I just have to be extra careful. Very intense.

As soon as LOST ends, I'm going to watch all three seasons again. Probably after the quarter ends too... During the summer I am only taking one class, so I think I'll have lots of time for such things. I really should get a job, but I don't think anybody's going to hire me for 6 weeks of service... Nor do I feel like being trained and getting settled in only to leave as soon as I'm finally comfortable. So I think I should try to spend the time being productive and working out every day and doing fun things with people I'm going to miss and not spending any money... I can kill two birds with one stone by forcing people I like to watch LOST with me, because it's fun and free. Who's in?

I hope my African Cinema professor is okay. He had to cancel our one and only class last week due to illness, but never sent out an email or anything. I also hope we weren't supposed to have figured out our paper topics by today... Because I'm still clueless.

There is a girl in this computer lab talking on her phone, but she's trying to be quiet so instead of responding to the person on the other end, she's just softly going "Mmm" but it sounds really weird and sexual. It's creeping me out a lot.

Ohhh glorious! The Fratellis are from Glasgow! No wonder I'm obsessed with them (thanks to Brittny).

Okaaayyy I'm going to go now. Sorry I always write a bunch of boring crap on Tuesday afternoons. I'm always stalling before class. All you people are troopers.

The demon children are crying and singing "We Will Rock You." Where's my BB gun?

I can't wait to be rid of those creatures and their evil, faceless voices (Jacob's offspring?). Even if I come across demon children in Scotland, they will all be adorable because they will have wee Glaswegian accents. And many of them will be gingers.

Last night's rehearsal of Angels in America was not too bad. I'm still very upset that I had to miss my film screening, but at least it was an interesting play and the acting didn't suck, even at this point in the rehearsal process. And I don't have to go in again until Thursday, which means I can watch "Greatest Hits" tomorrow. I will miss The Office finale, but I can just watch it when I get home Thursday night. It won't be like next week when I have to MISS THE MOST IMPORTANT EPISODE OF LOST EVER, but instead watch it from 11-1 and then get up for a quiz at 8:30.

Sorry for the whining.

I downloaded Dylan Moran: Monster yesterday, and I'm hoping to find some time today to watch it. I do so love him. I also have two Netflix movies that I need to watch (Tickets and Rory O'Shea Was Here) and another one called My Name Is Joe. Why do I have so many other things I need to do? Why can't I just watch DVDs all day? Poo.

Whining again.

I need a shower. Bye.

Diet Coke Plus is amazing. I can't tell if it tastes even a tiny bit *better* than normal Diet Coke? Maybe it's just because I know it's good for me, so that makes my taste buds happy.

This weekend was really good, especially Friday night. I love my family so so so so much. I'm going to miss them like crazy when I'm in Scotland. I'm working on convincing them that we all need to move there permanently (this is me assuming I'm going to love it, since I've never even been there). Also, they gave me a digital camera and some other cool things for my birthday, so I've been enjoying myself breaking everything in since they've left. Here are some neato pictures I've taken with my camera:

( Your eyes are big when they're so close. )

Speaking of LOST! I had a really insane LOST dream last night, but you shouldn't read about it if you have not yet seen "Man Behind the Curtain." ( So I was Jack... )

Oh my God, speaking of TV shows, I missed SNL on Saturday because I was severely sleep deprived and ended up crashing at about 9:30. I thought I was taping it, but I forgot to rewind the tape and therefore only got the first 30 minutes. So I downloaded the episode from iTunes, but there is still some stuff missing. I'm not sure if I've seen all of it yet (I'm working on downloading the torrent now), but I do know that it was what I consider to be the best episode in years! Oh Molly, you will always be my all-time favorite cast member. Or, to borrow a line from my second favorite, Will Ferrell, "Molly Shannon, you are a delight." MKG, Sally O'Malley, Jeannie Darcy... Those have to be my three favorite characters of hers. (I feel like Mary Katherine is a part of me, I love her so much.) And then other amazing characters like Kaitlin and Charli Coffee (FINAAAALLLYYY!!!) and my new favorite Penelope... And a long conversation about LOST. And a mention of Blake Lewis (which could have been better only if someone had actually played him... like Andy?)... Gawd, everything was so good. The audience was like roaring with laughter the whole time. I probably would have passed out if I had been there. I can't wait to have the entire episode downloaded. Awwwww Molly...

And speaking of SNL, Zach Braff posted a blog that mentions stuff about him being in NYC to prepare for this weeks awesome episode. It makes me smile. He is cool.

The damn kids next door are driving me batty today.

I guess I don't really have much more to say. I could write about how much Prof. Erickson irritated me the other day, but I am in a good mood and I don't feel like thinking aobut it. Plus sometimes I still love him, so I am very conflicted. He's just a huge pain-in-the-ass flake. Boo!!!

In order to stay keep myself sane and so I don't start talking to invisible people in rocking chairs, I am going to do a short little status-updatey thing as I compose my African Cinema take-home midterm tonight. I'll submit it as soon as all my work is complete. This should be interesting/a little crazy.

( Cut because it's a little long and a little LOST spoilery. )